You see, after much hard work I have found myself in the position of making a profit, albeit as small one for the last three months (positive cash flow) and I have found myself seriously considering some pretty big (well, big for me) investments to help my business to continue to grow (positive growth).
But before I talk about this fear of growth let’s take a quick step back.
For those of you that don’t know I have only been taking myself seriously as a micro creative business owner for about six months, and like everyone I have grand ideas. I understand that to turn these grand ideas into a reality not only do I have to take risks and spend some of my hard earned dollars, I have to overcome my fear of growth, that’s right I’m scared of growing my business.
Because for me growth means lots of things: expanding my product lines, expanding my exposure, building my blog, building the workshop side of my business, investing more of my time into my business, and scariest of all investing more money into my business.
I have been plagued by doubts about spending my hard earned dollars and using my 9-5 salary to fund these investments, it’s been keeping me awake at nights.
This is a seriously big fear for me and if I really stop and let this fear take over, I question everything, the whole she-bang. I start to think I am just kidding myself, spending all my time and money on a creative business, sh*t Emma, get out now while you can, you are going to regret all this in the future!
Does this sound familiar to you? Do you have the four a.m. terrors too?
I take stock: I go back and look at my financial records for the last six months, I smile on the inside as I look at the green column slowly outweighing the red column; I think of all the great people I have met since I started this journey; I look at my work and feel pride as I see how it is improving; I feed my imagination with my vision of the future of my creative business.
And you know what, it always works, a little bit of reassurance goes a long way, I feel renewed in my ambition and know that my decision to continue to invest in my business is the right one- that’s right, I start to embrace growth!
How do you overcome your fears? I would love to know, because maybe your tricks would help me too!